The last time we chatted, it was early January. I was running on that fresh New Year energy, ready to rewrite my life, fueled by the excitement of change, motivation, and discipline.
Fast forward a few weeks, and here we are. That discipline? It’s fluctuated. The motivation? It’s dipped a little. Honestly, there’s no major reason—just a slight loss of focus. And yet, if I’m being real, the progress I’ve made since the start of the year would surprise you (and completely contradict how I’m feeling right now).
Let me break it down:
- MyType4Hair is officially an LLC.
- I hit 30k followers on Instagram.
- I’ve signed with an agency.
- I opened a business bank account.
- I’ve been invited to the World of Natural Hair Show in Atlanta this April!
- I’ve knocked out 5-6 goals I set for myself—all in just one month.
On a personal level, Corey and I hit one year of marriage and celebrated with a mini getaway.
Now, as incredible as all that sounds (and trust me, it is), I’d be lying if I said I’m fully soaking it all in. I’m hard on myself—very hard. Even with so much progress, I feel this overwhelming pressure. It’s like the more I achieve, the higher the expectations feel. Almost like there are more eyes on me now, watching and waiting for the next big thing.
But what if those “eyes” are just… me? What if I’m the one applying all this pressure? Am I getting ahead of myself? Or am I letting the enemy creep in, planting seeds of overwhelm and anxiety with every success? After all, I am my toughest critic.
On a deeper level, I’ve come to realize something: God has me in a season of isolation. I was talking to a friend recently and mentioned how, as I’ve grown older, I’ve lost many relationships and friendships. (To be honest, I’m not even sure I’ve had true friendships since so few remain.) But I believe God is working in me—building me up for something bigger. He’s making me stronger, molding me into a soldier. And while I’m honored by that, I’d be lying if I said it doesn’t feel lonely at times. Still, I trust there’s a purpose in this.
Anyway, those are just some of my thoughts as we approach the second month of the year. I’m expectant for what’s ahead, curious about how God will continue to move in my life—softening my heart, straightening my path, and renewing my mind.
If you’re reading this, I want to remind you: life is a journey. You’ll have your ups and downs, no matter how good things may look on the outside. Take it one day at a time, and thank God for yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
Thanks for reading my thoughts. What do you say—same time next week? 😊
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